Can I take that back?

Yes, this is my third post in ONE DAY and it's been well over a month since my last post...

I'll just get right to it. When I was in college, I did an internship at a non-profit publishing press. It was Awesome.
I loved reading manuscripts, being around other people reading manuscripts, meeting people who wrote those manuscripts, and watching the process of a manuscript becoming a book that people could hold and love and pet.
It was Awesome.

Anyways, I still had a semester of college left after I completed the internship. A professor organized a gathering for students to ask me questions about the internship, and other professors attended (ugh, I'm starting to feel embarrassed). At one point during the Q&A, I made a comment about how I "never wanted to comprimise myself", and I certainly meant that, however, I think it came off sounding pompous. Well, it MUST have, because a professor that I really respected actually scoffed.
Scoffing is different than laughing. Scoffing is a noise that says, "Oh, f*cking NICE. NIIIICE". I realized it immediately, but I didn't retract, or try to rephrase, my comment.
I don't know what made that feeling come back, but it has again and again over the years.

So, yes, I never want to comprimise myself, BUT I am more (or was) than willing to work for my position in an organization like that particular publishing press. I think I might have sounded like I was saying, "I don't plan on doing any little piddly tasks, especially now that I'm HOT and RAD after working in the City"...

That scoff haunts me.

This should have been my very first post.

Sex in the shower is hot

This isn't a complaint, but I have discovered that steamy sex on a 90 degree day is very difficult. The only time I'm glad I'm light headed following sex is if I have orgasmed. I don't like almost fainting because of high humidity levels.
Perhaps this information is of use to you.
Good day.

Ten Year Reunion

Tomorrow evening i have my class reunion. Ten years. I'm wondering if we are all thinking the same thing...
"Time goes so quickly"
"Have I really done anything in the past ten years??"
"I hope that fill-in-the-blank doesn't show up!"
"I hope that fill-in-the-blank DOES show up and they are exactly the same person!"
"I wonder if I'm thinner than her now..."
"I wonder if they ever went to rehab..."
"I hope everyone thinks I'm happy and successful."

These have been a few thoughts, and there are plenty more (some even snobbier than you could imagine, others just a bit sad, and others that would be considered typical of me).

All our lives we watch movies, shows, and read stories about Reunions. I don't feel nearly the amount of pressure that has been demonstrated in certain shows, but there's something...it's giddiness, but also nervousness. Maybe I'm nervous for the people who are nervous. I actually do not feel at all like it's a competition. I'm quite happy with my life, myself, and my expectations for myself. I don't think I'm much different from High School Girl, except for my hair. It's much darker and straighter.

I feel sad for those classmates who aren't going because they don't feel they've accomplished enough. Seriously? We have ALL f*cked up in some way since high school, some in the past, some currently, and some are on their way to more extreme f*ck ups. It's ok! That's exactly why we need to get together and see that we've survived! It's very encouraging to me, actually.